hello and welcome to begin with wonder!
This is a place to let go and stay curious. I hope to inspire you to make time for creativity in your lives, build gratitude, nourish yourself and reflect deeply.
I wanted to start this blog over a year ago. I had a plan and there were steps to the plan. I was doing everything the way you ‘should’. I learned about how to start a blog, spent hours reading ‘what not to do’ so I wouldn’t make any mistakes and worked so hard at the idea of beginning a blog that I never actually got to it (perfectionism, we will definitely revisit you!).
Then, two months after I bought this domain name, I was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma. I got very sick and my thoughts were suddenly on my survival, what would happen to my partner if I died? What would I miss? I went through chemo and radiation treatments, all the while building a stronger and stronger gratitude practice and feeling every moment. Things became more palatable, richer and more magical. Wind felt amazing, how blessed was I to feel wind on my cheeks, smell the moisture in the air and hear the leaves rustling? The love that surrounds me became more visible, words easier to say and moments spent together heavier and more precious. As I moved through treatments and having cancer became the new normal, I spent more and more time alone. I had hours upon hours for reflection. Sometimes I blew through Netflix series, not wanting to reflect, actually doing the opposite. Or on a prednisone kick, I’d clean the basement or weed the garden. But other times, I would lie on my couch and pet my dog, Tequi (Tay-Kee), a rescue, I adopted two months after my diagnosis, and think about things. Time moving slowly, just being still. There was nothing I ‘needed’ to be doing, no agenda, just time and space and breath.
So it never felt right, starting this blog. I didn’t want it to become all about my cancer journey and I didn’t feel like it was what I was really meant to be focusing on, it would have been a distraction to the real work I needed to do.
But now I’m ready! I want this space to be open to mistake making and joyful creation, endless possibilities and perhaps another route to discovery. So for now, welcome.
Now onto yummier things…
I made these delicious cookies the other day, because hey!, it felt like a cookie making kind of day. These are great because the ingredients are so wholesome. I played around with the recipe a bit and subbed quinoa flakes, buckwheat flour and tapioca starch in for the gluten free flours because that’s what I had. They did not look as nice as Amy’s but tasted yummy. Oh and I added chocolate chips because I wanted to but I could see adding carob nibs for a healthier, nutrient rich boost.
Thank you for visiting and I look forward to connecting! Stay grateful and enjoy this day.